Taking Tom Murray Home Read online

  Dedication

  With thanks to Lise, Asta and Kristian

  for inspiring and forgiving

  Contents

  Dedication

  Yardley

  Direct Action

  Danny Boy

  Tyrendarra

  Port Fairy

  Warrnambool

  Cobden

  Colac

  Geelong

  The snort heard round the world

  Melbourne

  And beyond

  About Dorotea’s analgesia

  Acknowledgements

  About the Author

  The Winner of the Banjo Prize

  Copyright

  Yardley

  Jenny says, ‘Hey look over there, fire!’ and I say, ‘No way, just throw the ball,’ and she says, ‘No, Jack, there’s a fire over at our place!’ and she’s off running like a scared rabbit, so what can I do, I go after her.

  She goes the long way from Ardyaka Farm, through the fences and gates, but I go straight up Goat’s Head Rock and through The Gap and then down under the hay shed where she never goes coz she’s scared of rats but I never saw one there.

  So I get there before her and man oh man you never saw such a hullabaloo as there was that day.

  First I have to tell you, there was tons of cops. I don’t know why we never heard them but we never did. Should have heard them, all those police cars, or maybe they were trying to sneak up on Dad. We should have known they’d try to sneak up on him but old Mr Warn said he’d keep an eye out on Old Mill Road, they had to go past there, and he’d call Dad if he saw any cops, but I guess he never did or he was asleep or something.

  I catch Jenny as I round the dairy. ‘Oh holy moly,’ she says. ‘He’s burning the house.’

  ‘No way,’ I say.

  ‘Lookit, you idiot,’ she points. ‘It is. It’s burning.’

  ‘Awesome,’ I say. Which I know is a dumb thing to say but first I was thinking, hey what about my stuff and everyone’s stuff, but then I remembered we loaded it all into Mr Carnaby’s ute the day before yesterday, and then I thought, where’s Mum, but then I remembered she was visiting Aunty Ell so she was away out of it which she said was a good thing. So in the end all I thought was, good on ya, Dad, you did it. Awesome.

  I bet you can see the smoke all the way to Portland.

  We stand there at the edge of all these people. It’s our house but you’d think we were the strangers here the way they’re all over the place.

  ‘Where is he?’ Jenny whispers. ‘I can’t see him, wait there’s Mum, I thought she was over at Aunty Ell’s.’

  And sure enough, there is Mum talking to that policeman who was here before, I can’t remember his name but he gave me a peppermint. I walk over through all the people, most just walking around like they don’t know what to do, because I bet they don’t, a man burns his own house down, that doesn’t happen every day. I’m counting six cars and three utes with neighbours in, more arriving all the time, they saw the smoke I guess. Should have brought a fire truck, is what I think, and less cops.

  I put my hand in my mum’s hand. I can ball it up so it’s like she’s holding a softball, like a swinger. She can really swing a ball my mum because her hands are so big and rough she’s got a grip like a bear, like mine is going to be one day, she says.

  ‘Hey Mum,’ I say but she doesn’t say hey and keeps talking to the policeman and the policeman is saying he’s going to charge Dad with public nuisance when they find him, and Dad better say nothing public about how he’s burning his own house down because that would only make it worse.

  ‘He better not be in Portland talking to the Observer;’ the policeman says and Mum says, ‘I don’t know where he is. Honest, I don’t. I thought he’d be here.’

  And the policeman is saying, ‘No, well we warned you, and there’s charges, here’s the fire service they’ll bill you for the call-out,’ he says.

  And Mum says, quiet as you like, ‘There’s no law against a man burning down his own house, you confirmed that. Plus, I never called the fire service and just because you don’t like it is not my problem.’ Mum has a good glare on her when she’s like that and you don’t want to be on the pointy end of that glare but just the same you don’t want to miss it when she’s using it on someone else, especially a policeman.

  Pop is there, got his wheelchair out of his car and he’s just sitting there, watching it all and smoking a cigarette. He’s not really our pop, but everyone calls him Pop and it’s like he’s everyone’s granddad all at once, the number of birthday parties and barbecues you see him at. I like him because he smells of aftershave and always has gum in his pocket and a story to tell and I can already imagine the story he’ll be telling about today.

  Jenny comes up too and takes Mum’s other hand but she doesn’t say nothing just stands there staring around, mostly watching the house coz the fire is really taking now. The Country Fire Authority blokes stand around and a few of them are starting to get the hoses out but Mr McKenzie the CFA chief, he looks at Mum and Mum shakes her head at him so Mr McKenzie does this sign with his hand to his men and they go a little bit slower, seems like to me, getting their hoses all rolled out. Going to let that house burn.

  ‘You lot are crazy,’ the policeman says to Mum and waves at the fireys as well like ‘you lot’ includes them. ‘I have to get instructions on this,’ he says and goes back to his car, and the other cops they lean up against their cars and just then the roof at the corner above where the old kangaroo dog slept before he died, it caves in and the sparks go so high I start to worry, how long do they stay alight and might they reach the town before they burn out and might Dad start some other fires, which he doesn’t want. Him and Mum talked about it and decided it was enough to burn down the house, they didn’t want to damage the dairy, or start a fire that could spread to other places.

  Mr McKenzie sees the cops go to their cars and he jogs over to us and what I like, Mum doesn’t let go of Jenny or me, in fact she probably grips a bit tighter. I guess she knows we are a bit scared, which we are even though Dad has been telling people for weeks that if he can’t get a fair price for our cows he’s going to shoot them and then he’s going to burn our house down and take the ashes to State Parliament and tip them on the floor there, see if he won’t. And then the bank can have it.

  ‘You want to just let her burn?’ Mr McKenzie asks.

  Mum says, ‘Yeah, it’s just stone and wood now, we got everything out.’ And Mr McKenzie watches and his men they just watch too, waiting for him to say go or something, which he doesn’t. Then he says, ‘You should have got the cameras in, Dawn, this would have made the news all over,’ and Mum says, ‘Oh, we’ll make the news all right but not with me looking like some old lunatic getting dragged away by the police.’

  Jenny laughs, kind of, and Mum pulls her onto her hip. Jenny’s way too big for that but Mum she’s a big woman with good dancing hips Dad says, and Jenny grips her like her pony, when she had a pony, before we had to sell it. The wind changes and the smoke from the house starts blowing right at us. Jenny lets go of Mum and we sneak in behind her and put our faces in the small of her back and Jenny is looking at me like, wow, it’s really happening, isn’t it? Then Mrs Turnbolt comes out from her car and says, ‘Dawn, I should take the children, right? Best for them to get back of all this, yeah?’

  And Mum says, ‘You cleared it with Harold?’ asking if Mr Turnbolt is OK with it, and Mrs Turnbolt says, ‘Yes, Harold is all right,’ and Mum says, ‘Right, then,’ and I’m saying, ‘No way, I don’t want to go back to Turnbolts’, we just came here from there. I’m staying!’ But a lot of good that does, pretty soon I’m looking out Mrs Turnbolt’s car window at the house, what
’s left of it, and Mum, and the cops, and the fire crew and the neighbours, and the smoke’s all the way up to the sky now like a big pointing finger that says something bad happened here.

  Right here.

  The Turnbolts’ place is OK I suppose. They got a gravel driveway that makes a good cricket pitch – you can use their garage door as a wicket as long as you don’t use a real cricket ball or even a hard rubber one, or else Mr Turnbolt gets cranky. Last night I slept on the couch in the Turnbolts’ kids’ old room which still has posters from when Gary Ablett was captain of the Cats. Jenny got the bed the first night, but tonight we swap, because that couch smells of their dog Dusty.

  We’re out back playing cricket and I can still see smoke over where our place is, or was. Maybe it isn’t our place any more, maybe it’s the bank’s by now. Jenny says she can’t see smoke, it’s been like a whole day, they put it out, but I can. I got better eyes than her and she’s shorter.

  And then Mum comes bowling out the back door and there’s a wild terrible look in her eyes and she grabs Jenny and she runs over to me and she’s crushing us and she’s saying, ‘He’s dead. Your dad’s dead.’

  And Jenny starts dry wailing and I’m like, ‘No, what?’

  And Mum is saying, ‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry, the bloody fool, the mad stupid bloody fool . . .’

  Direct Action

  ‘The young’uns,’ Mr Turnbolt says, looking across the kitchen table and nodding at me. Jenny’s in our room, moping, but I want to hear what’s going on. They’re all in the Turnbolts’ kitchen – Mum and the Garretts and the policeman, now I remember his name, it’s Senior Sergeant Hussein Karsioglu, of the Portland Police, but he grew up around here and they all call him Karsi.

  Usually they stop talking whenever Jenny or me come into the kitchen or lounge or wherever they are, but now Mum just sighs and says, ‘Don’t mind him, he’s a big lad. He’ll hear what he hears and he can ask me if he has any questions, can’t you, luv?’ And I nod and go and stand next to her because there isn’t room on her lap between her bosom and the table. She gives me a tired smile.

  Karsi is leaning up against a wall with his arms crossed and he says, ‘Well anyway. We’re going to need you to come to Portland, Dawn, I need another statement.’

  ‘What statement?’ Mr Turnbolt says. ‘The woman’s husband is dead, man. There’s your statement.’

  ‘I’d like to speak with Mrs Murray alone, if I could,’ Karsi says. ‘I can insist.’

  ‘What you need to say, you can say here,’ Mum says. ‘In front of these people.’

  Karsi sighs, looks at me with this kind of what the hell look on his face. ‘You’ll all need to be interviewed again,’ he says. ‘I want to keep a lid on this but I need to know, did anyone help Tom set the fire, because then they could be accessory to his death.’

  ‘Accessory to a suicide?’ Mrs Garrett asks. ‘How does that work?’

  Karsi says quickly, ‘Don’t go throwing that word around. Dr Watson told me he had heart troubles. I’m treating it as natural causes, unless I find there’s some reason I shouldn’t.’

  A few of them laugh at this, and Mr Turnbolt says, ‘Natural causes? The roof of the man’s house fell on his head!’

  ‘Ssh,’ Mrs Turnbolt says, looking at me. She’s got this way of talking out of the side of her mouth when she’s saying something she doesn’t want you to hear, but it’s a bit pointless because when you see her doing it you listen harder.

  Karsi looks at Mum. ‘It’s my call, and I don’t want to involve the coroner in this if I don’t have to. Emotions are high enough, without dragging this thing out for weeks. But questions have to be asked.’

  ‘Why does she need to go to Portland?’ Mr Garrett asks. ‘Do your bloody interrogation here and be done with it.’

  ‘I’m not conducting interviews here in Yardley,’ Karsi says. ‘Come up here with a bunch of uniforms, upsetting everyone.’

  Mr Garrett is about to say something else but Mum pushes back from the kitchen table, stands up. She pulls me to her side. ‘When do I need to give this statement?’ she asks. She’s got something like glass in her voice. Something strong but like it could break any moment.

  ‘Today if possible. This afternoon would be good,’ Karsi says.

  ‘Except there’s the meeting at Yardley Elders tonight,’ Mr Turnbolt says. ‘No one’s going in to Portland today.’

  ‘What meeting’s that?’ Karsi asks.

  ‘Farmers First Dairy Crisis Meeting,’ Mr Turnbolt says, all capitalised like that.

  ‘Oh that, yeah. I forgot about that,’ Karsi says. ‘I was supposed to be there.’

  ‘Maybe you should,’ Mr Garrett says. He’s got a face that’s all knuckles. I’ve never seen it smile. ‘Any politician shows their face there, they’re in for an earful. Maybe more than an earful.’

  ‘Is the bank man going to be there?’ I ask.

  ‘Is he my arse,’ Mr Turnbolt says.

  ‘Trevor!’ Mrs Turnbolt says, looking at me.

  ‘He might, actually,’ Mrs Garrett says. ‘I saw him in town the other day and asked was he going and he said do I think it’s a good idea or would it just inflame things and I said no, it would show some guts, some caring spirit, if he turned up.’

  ‘He won’t,’ says Mr Turnbolt. ‘He’s foreclosed on three properties in the district this year already. There’s people will be there who he’s put on notice.’ Mr Turnbolt looks at Mum, ‘Like you.’

  Karsi squints a bit, then asks Mum, ‘Are you going to this meeting, Mrs M?’

  She looks down at the kitchen table. ‘We were going to. I probably should. For Tom. He’d have wanted to be there.’

  ‘Too right he would,’ Mr Garrett says. ‘Too right, Dawn.’

  Mum looks up again, at Karsi. ‘We’ll go to this meeting tonight, then I’ll come into Portland tomorrow and give you your statement, is that all right?’

  Mum spends most of her life in jeans, boots and different jumpers and she only has one decent coat which is in a box somewhere, so she has to borrow one of Mrs Turnbolt’s which doesn’t really fit because Mrs Turnbolt is skinny and tall and Mum is . . . not. Her brown curly hair is a bit flat and she tries to fluff it in the Turnbolts’ mirror.

  ‘How long are we going to be living here?’ Jenny asks. She’s sitting on the spare bed. ‘I want to go home.’

  ‘We can’t go home, moron,’ I tell her. ‘Dad burned it down. Besides, it isn’t ours any more, it’s the bank’s.’

  ‘Not yet it’s not,’ Mum says. ‘Not officially. And don’t call your sister a moron.’ She finishes fussing with her hair and turns to Jenny. ‘We won’t be here long, pet. A few days more, until we’re finished with the police and the insurance assessors. Then we’ll go to Melbourne and stay with Uncle Lou.’

  ‘What about the cows?’ I ask. ‘Is Mr Garrett going to milk them? Who’s milking them?’ I ask, because I’ve just realised, with all this hullabaloo, no one is looking after the dairy. The cows will be fair exploding.

  ‘Don’t worry about the cows,’ Mum says.

  ‘Dad shot the cows,’ Jenny said. ‘He said he would.’

  ‘He didn’t shoot them,’ Mum says. ‘He sold them.’

  ‘To Mr Garrett?’ I ask.

  ‘To another dairy,’ she says. ‘Now listen, you two, we’re off to this meeting in Yardley. You just stay here, watch some telly. We’ll be back before ten.’

  ‘What time is it now?’ Jenny asks.

  ‘Seven,’ Mum says. She crouches down and cups Jenny’s face in her hands. ‘We won’t be long, but we gotta get going. All right?’

  Soon as the car pulls out, with Mr and Mrs Turnbolt up front and Mum in the back, Jenny says to me, ‘You right?’

  ‘You bet,’ I tell her, and we both run for the door.

  Our bikes are out the back. We are out of there like dogs chasing sheep, ears flat, nothing but dust behind us. We get to the Garretts’ in about ten seconds flat, or anyway, no more than five
minutes. Jenny was the one said Mr Garrett is always late, he’d leave after Mum, and she’s right. The Garretts are still inside, turning off lights, getting ready to leave.

  I knock on the door, thinking what I rehearsed I would say.

  Mr Garrett comes to the door, ‘Well. What are you two doing here?’

  ‘Can we come with you to Yardley?’ I ask him. ‘We were late getting back to the Turnbolts’ and they left without us and Mum is going to kill us.’

  ‘I don’t know if it’s a meeting for kids,’ Mr Garrett says, sucking on a tooth like he’s not sure.

  ‘Mum didn’t want us to be alone,’ Jenny says. I smile at her. Genius.

  Mrs Garrett sticks her head out of her bathroom, ‘Come on, John. We’ll give them a lift. Dawn wouldn’t want them stuck at Turnbolts’ alone, after . . . you know. People would understand.’

  ‘I’ll call her,’ Mr Garrett says, reaching for his jacket on a peg by the door and patting the pockets. ‘Where’s my bloody phone?’

  ‘I don’t bloody know where your bloody phone is,’ Mrs Garrett says, all tetchy. ‘You should have it on a string around your neck, you doddery old . . .’ Which is funny because they’re both pretty doddery. And you know how there are competitions for people who look like their dogs? Well if there was a competition for couples who look like each other, the Garretts would win it easy because from the back they both look the same when they’ve got their raincoats and hats and rubber boots on.

  ‘We’re really late,’ I say quickly. ‘They probably left ages ago.’

  Mr Garrett stops patting the pockets and puts the jacket on. ‘You’re right, you’re right. Come on, Mrs G, we’ll sort it out when we get there.’

  And then we’re in the back seat of the Garretts’ old Ford and Jenny is grinning at me because no way were we going to miss it if the bank man shows up to this meeting. Because Jenny and me, we know it was the bank man who killed Dad and we’re going to accuse him of it.

  There’s hundreds of people in the Elders office when we get there, or at least a hundred anyway. Mr Garrett had to park on the side street by the public toilets there were so many cars. We run ahead of the Garrets, coz they’re old and slow. Inside Elders they’ve pushed back all the desks and got a bunch of chairs in from the school, which I’m thinking is where they should have held the meeting so they didn’t have to move all the chairs, but whatever.